way way back been busy with some things and work ...
never thought writing again here in my blog...
been out with friends this couple of weeks drunk
went out to different provinces where my friends came from
looking over my family
and been busy with my job..
but then again, still not contented so i am here working part time
and currently looking over a baby what i meant was a real baby..
only when i got time and never been tired im taking care of my family
plus my tall handsome partly payat but loving ai i mean bf..

been going out and being with him all the time is never been tiring...
we sometimes argue but i guess its part of a relationship..
it was really always my fault coz i never think of anything but only myself...
[not really like that tho]
as days passed by as we meet up at the house or outside really means a lot to me..
never been bored being with him coz i know he cares a lot about me...
even in his busiest days he always set things to meet me..
i just realized i was so selfish didn't even think about
his situation...

hope so he's thinking about me right now
coz i miss him already even we just went out yesterday..
i'll never get tired of loving him.. and i hope so he'll do the same
coz all i want is coh my only ai...

p.s
didn't put his name here coz he don't like his name lol..
happy 3 1/2 monthly ai.. :)
feeling mushy tonight and i'm here listening to para sa akin by sitti
coz that's the song he dedicated to me..

Last friday was the 2nd best time gimik i ever had not because we bar hop in three different bars,
not because of the drink and the partying all night but because i had some happy bonding moments with my friends.. :)

It was like 11pm when we arrived at Forbes Height to pick up Malou, her bf, Leo and Mae ..

i don't have a lot time to fix my blog for being busy.. i am so busy with my special someone also so i haven't posted anything here.. anyways a lot dramatic and sad things happens everyday but we have to continue living right?

i got flue few days ago and its all becoz of the bad weather.. :'( but still need to fix all the things that i need to finish.. :( still sad coz i dont know what to do.. done with the other problems but not yet done with the major ones..

ill be in bulacan in fri night sana or else bibiyahe ako ng pagkaaga aga ng sat..~_~ hays miss my cousins already pati na sila nanay ko i mean my mom's siblings .. [tagalog mode]

i'll be buying a lot candles for my lola and lolo in the cementery this coming all soul's day..

to make the story short.. i am not done yet with the requested things that my friends ask me for.. :(

Since i was so bored i bought two books with me..
Last Sunday just got this Who stole my magic by Jenny Manuel and Breakup diaries by Maya O. Calica... My friend said it was not so cool to get those two books like i was so bitter but I really bought this two books coz it was cool.. I read the Who stole your magic when i was 18 but it was long ago that's why i bought a new one and i forgot to keep the first one of my copy...

Who Stole My Magic is a helpful book that can help u survive from a breakup, girls you know what i mean.. if you haven't cope up with the last break up it's the right time to grab a copy in any bookstore near your place...[recommended bookstore Powerbooks] where i got a copy of the two books.. :) i am not really broken hearted dahil wala naman nakipagbreak sa ken kasi im not in a relationship.. COMPLICATED .. actually im just torned in between fallin in love and falling out.. dahil sa gulo ng mga taong nasa paligid ko esp guys and i needed some help ng books though i got my friends to advice me..Some says focus on family or looking for a job or into something coz im not a young adult anymore.. i know they are right to tell me those things but i feel like being busted or broken hearted.. some guys tells me im pretty nice and sweet but why is that i am always alone .. i know its good being alone but what the heck why i envy guys who have gf/bf.. everytime i see couple in the mrt/lrt holding hands or in the mall i feel like telling myself "baket si inday merong bf pero aq parang wala?" hahaha.. sad but true ayt?

back in the topic im not really broken hearted i just love reading those two books especially like this time.. sad love songs, all alone no one to talk to kahit sa ym.. a bar of cadbury to ease the boredom and i wanna eat ice cream!! sigh.. im fallin into pieces and no one fixing me yet..

but i know someone somewhere out there will feel the emptiness inside of me and will make me whole again.. im done playing already and i hope that guy im waiting will make me whole again..

i'm done reading jenny manuel's book and i recommend anyone to get a copy [walang bayad ung pagaadvertise ko ah] coz this will enlighten some girls who got hurt and broken.. i love the illustrations and the book color is so girly!! i wanna finish reading the 2nd book i bought by maya calica later after finishing some things.. i haven't finish the 2nd book but ill be reading it in a bit..

planning to go out this coming thursday job hunting again....

sigh .. i was been there for almost 4 hrs waiting for them to reply me back.. it was the first time that it happen to me that i didn't got the to see the persons who told me that they'll be there in the mini eb in megamall.. but im fine now.. this ranting must end now.. and i hope i'll be okay as soon as i feel destressed...

i don't know how will i start but im really not in the good mood this week..
my computer crashed and so am i.. sigh... i wanna die to this misery happening to me...
so so bad already... i can't even think a lot.. i hope this burden that's happening to me
would end up soon.. coz if it won't i don't know what will i do next... :'(


can someone can bring my smiley face back again?

i really hate my life... and i don't know who will i blame for what is happening to me...

i know i am not the most miserable person in this world but hello should i feel this pain?

is this what i get after all the hard works that im doing for everything good that i do?

i can't even call this a karma coz i never done wrong to someone... i guess... sigh....

hays!! tagal ko na din di nagpopost sa blog q!!
super busy sa work, sa family, sa barkada and sa love life ko..
nakalimutan q isulat lahat ng nangyari sa ken nung nakaraan buwan...
di naman ako ganun kabusy last month pero tinamad aq at nakalimot sa dapat kong gawin..
so im here sinusulat journal ng buhay ko na nangyari last month...

starting pa lang ng september minamalas ata ako.. nasira ang cpu q and i have to fix it....
i still have to do some remedios para gumana ng maayos pc q kase madalas akong maghang!!
muntik na din akong maputulan ng internet dahil nakalimutan ko magbayad.. haha!! it was my best friends week din kase bday ni kuya eric nung sept 5 na buti na lang nkabawi aq by buying an ice cream bilang treat ko sa kanya.. aun lang.. haha!!

2nd week ng september wala akong ibang ginawa kungdi ayusin problema ko pero eto october na di pa din tapos ausin ang dapat kong ausin.. hahaha.. [add up pa ndi naging ok kase lahat kme sa bahay maliban sa tatay q nagkasakit] so i cant even work a lot... daig ko pa sinapian ng robot pag gusto ko kumilos kase maya't maya kelangan q mahiga para magrecharge saya noh?!!?! bagyuhin ka ba naman tapos sabay araw sa umaga di ka trangkasuhin nun.. O.o

3rd week ng september i met my tropa and watch movies with them..[kahit di pa ako totally magaling nun.. ] i hang out with my friends within this week [my gulay am i busy? not yet.. ] gumala with my sister after a weekday long.. of business.. wat a week.. stressed with eyebags na drama pa yan.... i did also forgot na madami na akong atraso sa mga humihingi ng fansign sa ken.. huhuhu.. [sorry friends q im so busy kase talaga aun.. ]

4th week pinakastressed sa ken tong week na to ng september.. fiesta kase sa men after ng weekdays nito.. kinasal pa insan ko.. aun... and i made some decisions na parang pinagsisihan ko kase.. nevermind kung anuman un kase it was my fault din naman.. why nagkaganun. pabigla bigla din kase aq ng decisions ko.. papalpak din pala in the end... pero i end up being alone again..... i was so lie low sa camfrog at sa ibang things this week.. buti na lang anjan sila anna camille and kuya eric to make me smile... syempre meron din nagpapasaya sa ken and they are called "admirers".. kala nyo kayo lang may admirers syempre ako din meron..

pero to summarize it all, buong september ko naman lucky pa din kahit papano and siguro ganun ata talaga pag super busy ng isang tao, super bilis rin kase ng araw kapag bumabagyo...hindi din naten masisi ang mga sarili naten o ang ibang tao kung baket maliit lang ang oras natin para matapos ang mga dapat gawin naten.. :) ienjoy natin ang bawat oras at minuto ng buhay naten..

pasensya sa tagalog ko dumudugo na kasi ulo ko sa ilang linggong puro english ginagamit ko.. sa mga nagbasa salamat.. any violent reaction and nice comments are open in my shoutout box lol..

p.s. sa mga friends ko na di ko gaano nakakausap nitong nakakaraang araw pasensya na madami lang iniisip... kahit na di ko kayo nakakausap alam nyo naman gaano ko kayo namimiss at gustong makasama kaso busy lang talaga ko... love you all..